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19 July 2012 @ 08:13 am
Her.  
I cannot stand her. I really can't. She so much better than me and the shitty part is that she knows it. She walks around like she's the greatest thing in the world.. she looks at me like I'm nothing ..and i believe it. She's prettier than me, and everyone loves her.. but what really gets me is that she's skinnier than me. She is the BIGGEST trigger of my eating disorder. She makes me want to waste away to nothing. Right now everything is HER HER HER and i just want it to be me, just once. I just want her to walk into the room and look at me with that longing to be thin, the way i look at her everyday. Just once..
 
 
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st0mach_acidst0mach_acid on July 19th, 2012 04:49 pm (UTC)
no really, thank you for taking the time to give me some great advice. the thing is idek if she's really like that or not. a good majority of it is in my head. I feel bad for being so jealous for almost no reason but i really cant help it. she's taking over my mind :c
freetheravenfreetheraven on July 19th, 2012 07:06 pm (UTC)
who is she?
Maybe if you talk to her you can get to understand her better and she can understand you.
st0mach_acidst0mach_acid on July 19th, 2012 07:16 pm (UTC)
Believe me, we used to be best friends. I'm tried enough on that part.
freetheravenfreetheraven on July 19th, 2012 07:30 pm (UTC)
If she doesnt want to be your friend then just dont worry about her. You can make so many new friends. You can control what you think and avoid thinking of those envious thoughts about her,
st0mach_acidst0mach_acid on July 20th, 2012 01:28 am (UTC)
I really wish it were that simple ):